To blue OR not to Blue

I'm not very happy today.
I start not to laugh or come out any voice in the class...
Maybe i feel upset to all the bad thing happen to my family and neighbour recently...

My brother have make some troublesome to my family again and again..
Why he Still can't wake up to reality?
Why he always did the bad thing and never consider the feeling of my mom and my sister?
he is very very selfish!DO all the thing just benifit himself!!
What THE FUCK?!! this kind of people make me very angry!!

Even though i very hate him,but sometime i show sympathy for him!
I dunno why?why i will feel sympathy to him?
i hope he go far far from me..But i still sympathy on him...
I hate it...this always influence my study progress..
i have to think many way to escape from him...
i don't know how to reject him when he ask my help...
i feel disturbed because of him...
You all will think i am the bad brother..
But i am not.Seriously!!
He did the wrong thing first...no no...is big trouble to all of us many time within one year..
this turn me become very aggresive...make me become unfeeling to him...
i got no hope to see him become good...HE IS HOPELESS...

My neighbour was pass away 2 day ago due to LEUKEMIA..
Feel sad when i heard that from my mom..she is a very nice person...
Why the GOD always do the thing wrong?