To blue OR not to Blue

I'm lost in my future direction!!
I'm not born in the rich family!
Even,
I can do everything freely!
I got the freedom!
But,
Every step i wanna to do have some limit!
I have to make a lot of consideration!
I cannot like other guy can do whatever they like!
I wishes to participate in I WANNA BE MODEL organize by 8TV next year!
I wishes to be a airline worker! Serving all the passenger all over the world!
I wish to be parts of Singapore airline! MAS!Air Asia!
But,
My sister have put all their income to my education!
I scare to tell my sister
I scare to tell my mom
I scare to tell everyone
- I really wasting their money!
- INTI really no quality!
- INTI teach all the surface theory
- What i learned in inti just theory
- I dunno how to programming
- I dunno how to differentiate the wire in the plug
- I dunno how to repair any single radio or heater at my house!
- I dunno everything
- I just know how to score high mark
- I just know how to make other praise on me
- I always make them worry

I really scare to tell them
This is the Failure for me
Waste 100k on my education
No one will know my own ability!
I know how much i got!

To my lovely sister:

If you all have read through this, please keep it in your heart! Give me sometime! I need some time!i feel grateful to you all! I feel Thankful! Thank you my sister for always supporting me! thank for my mom for always pray for me, worry me!!but i will never let you all worry!!i will let myself go through nature wAY

Scientist always ask: "Why WHy Why!!". Engineer will always asked: " Why not?". what is the different between these two ? let me explain to you all:

All Scientist are idiot, doing all the stupid theory! No one can prove that is correct or not!!all are scientist assumption!But we all seem like agree with them. Even all their theory is being used for so many year, so many thousand of years.But i believe, there are some mistake still occurs.that particular mistake would not make big effect, but will make all the engineer in trouble!

Engineer most worst, scientist already fool, engineer still follow all the theory! But at least engineer can fool until implement and make all the special thing using the " assumption" and theory of scientist. But some of the telecommunication still unable to fully successful? Why not successful? Some engineer might asked it! That is because the particular mistake made by scientist.

But in my personal opinion,engineer is the genius in this world!Without civil engineer, there are no way to build the highest building! Without mechanical engineer, there is no way to produce the car--> then no car in the world! Without Electrical engineer, there is not electricity in this world! Without Electonic engineer, there is not Laptop, PC, handphone!

Without me, there is not this kind of lame posting at this blogspot!!!haha

Today, Hippo ,sookyi and me had went to Market road to buy our final year project component. On the way to KL, wao~~we had seen th police catch the INDONESIA guy.the police was cool. He is using the high voltage stick to conquer the Indo guy! i dunno why!

Dunno how is the feeling of INDONESIA guy when catch by police in front of so many people in KTM komuter station. if i were him, i feel 衰 lo !haiz... This just a part of my special trip..keke

While we are in the komuter, it is damn tired and sleepy..is suffering...Three of us having the short discussion, we hate to take ktm from kl sentral back to nilai.. it is so much of passenger fixed into a stupid and damn fucking slow komuter..

We came out a conclusion : we take airasia bus go to LCC terminal..haha....

having a cup of hazelnut ice blended..having a cup of mocha ice blended..having a cup of black forest ice blended...

wao~~such as a wonderful ..enjoyful trip...but it will be more comfortable if we are in other country....haha..At least no need to see two hole animal all the way!!haha

after The coffee bean, we decide having dinner at KFC, LCCT. unexpected, chicken at KFC LCCT is taste more nicer than NILAI giant...dunno why...maybe our mood is relax..enjoy..happy...

after the meal...we have going to take bus bac to inti...we met a group of CHINA man..china women..china kid..

haha

sookyi is being called as 阿姨...hahah.....

then, we pass through KLIA, stop at KLIA bus stop...whole trip took us abount an hour...from LCCT to INTI....hmm.......tired

This is one of my most un-believeable thing! I can't imagine! Why am i so careless? did the stupid careless mistake in mean and range chart part!!whole question 50% gone....haiz....sigh, subjective part!!i really no eye see, i just hope david wong can maximize my mark....i dun wan resit,i dun wan retake...this will make me miserable...if resit, resit will hold at april 2010..april 2010 is the most busy semester..project,thesis, presentation, strategic management, assignment all come together...i dun wan resit and retake...it definitely will affect my overall performance..haiz........


juz pray hard...my QA can pass,35% enuf!

thank yo this word can be very touchful and can be very fake-ful!!It is depend on how a person say it to you...

I am feeling very happy and touch when my friend say thank to me..
I am just consulting my friend with all the idea and comment whether is useful or not..
After he read my message,he have think deeply..

Finally he found the way to solve the problem he was facing now!

HE said :" i feel grateful to your encourage and support,Thjank you!"

I feel very arm and happy to my friend.

At the end,i just hope he can pass this crisis!!
GOD BLESS HIM!!!

My best fren in my hometown...he is facing the big finance problem...i wanna to help him to pass this problem,but i can't afford due to i have no cash...

The only thing i can helping him is just sit beside him....
I dunno how to consulte him,i am just holding his hand with my sympathy heart..
He is a very nice person,he treat every one very nice..

Unfortunately,the God no eye...why all his friend and his Family dun want help him to pass this finance problem...

He told me,his family got money..BUT,They dun wan to helping him..
i felt sad about this...
Somemore his sister's Husband is no willing to help him by holding his sister aank account booklet...

haiz....

My fren,you must be strong to pass this ...If you can pass this,you can show all of them you can do it....

I AM accompanying him for almost whole day...i scare he will do the wrong thing..i dun wan he think something bad..

i am just answer all the question he is asking...

but...oops gosh...all my answer i think is useless...

sorry friend...really sorry...can't give you any good comment...

I feel shocked at the end...he Say I am His Good fren...i saw his eye,his eye full of grateful....

And i feel sympathy to him again....

GAMBATEH!!!

i feel very pekcek now!!!!

i wanna to cry...
i wanna to scold people...
i wanna to....i wanna to whatever i like...

But ,i can't!!

i have to calm down...calm down

haiz...

what i can do is...just blogging!!

here is the only place i can voice out everything...

wheteher u understand or not...doesn't matter....

i understand it,then enuf!!

I'm not very happy today.
I start not to laugh or come out any voice in the class...
Maybe i feel upset to all the bad thing happen to my family and neighbour recently...

My brother have make some troublesome to my family again and again..
Why he Still can't wake up to reality?
Why he always did the bad thing and never consider the feeling of my mom and my sister?
he is very very selfish!DO all the thing just benifit himself!!
What THE FUCK?!! this kind of people make me very angry!!

Even though i very hate him,but sometime i show sympathy for him!
I dunno why?why i will feel sympathy to him?
i hope he go far far from me..But i still sympathy on him...
I hate it...this always influence my study progress..
i have to think many way to escape from him...
i don't know how to reject him when he ask my help...
i feel disturbed because of him...
You all will think i am the bad brother..
But i am not.Seriously!!
He did the wrong thing first...no no...is big trouble to all of us many time within one year..
this turn me become very aggresive...make me become unfeeling to him...
i got no hope to see him become good...HE IS HOPELESS...

My neighbour was pass away 2 day ago due to LEUKEMIA..
Feel sad when i heard that from my mom..she is a very nice person...
Why the GOD always do the thing wrong?

i not really want force myself to believe that my friend going to be fake....But,this few day i really can feel the exist of the fake around me...I dare not to mention what my friend did here..